My thoughts, my feelings and how I dealt with it all...

So as you already know I’m 16, and was at boarding school for 7 and a half years. This means I left school 2018 in June!

I’m going to tell you MY thoughts, when I was there! (Mentally wise)

Mentally, emotionally it is very exhausting... you can’t believe what you have to do just to get through the month maybe even the week!

I’ve already said this, so I’m just going to tell all of you how my feelings come into all of this as-well as how I dealt with the situation.

Basically it’s like someone has control of my body, making small things into big things and makes you feel like your stuck in a box ready for you to escape it (which is just impossible) I had a lot of feelings over the years: Betrayal, loneliness, Tiredness, being constantly upset, Happy in rare situations and Isolation.

The reason I felt like this is because I had friends and I lost them, I made friends and I pushed them away or I had friends and well that’s what I thought anyway... sometimes when you think you have people there, it can be an imagination that you make up because that’s what you wish you have, this happens cause your by yourself even when your not.

This feeling is without a doubt very common, and a lot of people deal with this. But i am now going to tell you how I dealt with this insecurity and imagination.

The way I coped, is just me keeping everything inside and letting it all out when the next thing come into place. E.g you had an argument with a close friend (bottle it up inside) next day.. a rumour is spread around about you (bottle it up) you think over the first one and you go talk to the close friend and reason with them- then ignore the rumour and wait for the next!

It’s almost setting a cycle in my head getting myself prepared for the next and before you know it! It gets too much and that’s when I have breakdowns and I isolate myself from everyone around me...

Or I just try to forget about the stuff that has affected me, put a smile on, go to school, laugh whatever someone says to me. Act like I don’t care in a sense and as time went/ goes on I’m used to it and just stay strong- push aside my small problems and get on with it, and just be there for the people around me that truly need someone constantly to support them!

Not all this is telling u exactly what the title says but there’s not much you can say apart from just keep being my self and stay strong! but my opinion to everyone, let it out talk to someone never bottle it! and concentrate on yourself before you do for others, because you’ll find you can’t stay strong for other people if your not staying strong for yourself first!